I was young and I was reckless man Moved out at seventeen and made my momma mad I thought I had it all figured out A pocket full of pills and a forty in my mouth Peeled out in my big black Chevy Flipped it six times and I knew that I was ready To straighten up because my best friend died I didn't wanna carry on living that life And now I'm running from the scene 'Cause I was caught up in the crime It's a loaded memory Yeah, it kills me every time And I'm trying not to scream but it's eating me alive I'm still haunted by the best years of The best years of my life Yeah, let me take y'all back I was young and I was helpless man Self medicating my own depression man I drank a bottle after breakfast Took a look in the mirror ripped the rosary off my necklace Damn I lost my job so I lost faith I just saw a baby bump in my girl's waist I need a drink to feel right Party with my homies to escape from real life Yeah, we had it all figured out A pocket full of pills and a forty in my mouth But, I never should've let my best friend drive 'Cause he's the reason my child will never see me alive Damn! Now I'm running from the scene 'Cause I was caught up in the crime It's a loaded memory Yeah, it kills me every time And I'm trying not to scream but it's eating me alive I'm still haunted by the best years of The best years of my life All of a sudden nothing matters anymore He lost it all, his life was scattered on the floor And now his family's tryna pick up all the pieces I am locked up in a box, I am a monster I'm the reason that he's gone Wish I could take it all back Press rewind and take a picture of the past Pause it, feel my heart turn black My lungs are smoldering, I'm breathing in the ash Now I'm running from the scene 'Cause I was caught up in the crime It's a loaded memory Yeah, it kills me every time And I'm trying not to scream but it's eating me alive I'm still haunted by the best years of The best years of my life I'm still haunted by the best years of The best years of my life I'm still haunted by the best years of