Seems life forever, Like forever Since I tore myself apart And left my friends in the wake Of countless tears and fading life. When I couldn't seem to grasp the life I lead And the lives I touch Its one year on now One year on, one year on Still I struggle with the same demons I shed as I laid there lost in my head Lost in my head (Lost in this goddamn hospital bed) I'm not the same man And I don't dare try (Try to uncover all the darkness I hide) Its like my demons are my lovers But I've got friends by my side I've got hope in my eyes And dreams to aspire too And the whole wide world to watch below (And death won't be my lover I've got so much left to give And take my life with subtle steps Instead of not wanting all that is left) Instead of trying to take my own life Its one year on And I'm stronger, I want to live much longer Not grow old and bitter And not jaded And not hate what life gave me Let the fear wash away Let the demons blunt their claws On a life that's full of mistakes But always searching for much more I won't die defeated I won't die defeated I won't die defeated I won't die Cause I've got friends by my side I've got hope in my eyes And dreams to aspire too And the whole wide world to watch below (and death won't be my lover I've got so much left to give And take my life with subtle steps Instead of not wanting all that is left No death won't be my lover I've got so much left to give And take my life with subtle steps Instead of not wanting all that is left)