Like I met my girl when I was 18 years old And she was just turning 23 I really love her from my heart And even though I don't deserve it fam I hope she loves me So I just done this private show I'm doing Footlocker promo And judging from the postcode it was Shoreditch or Soho Did 6 or 7 tracks, made 6 or 7 racks A couple days later on twitter I saw this photo of myself and I was grinning That 4K camera of quality had got me tripping So I'm checking out who did it When I stumbled on this girl And I could tell that she was different A couple hours later now I'm liking all her pictures I ain't finished I typed her twitter name into my Insta so I could check on every single little digit Why didn't I just message her? Trust me I was thinking, but I'm a self-centred rapper too concerned about my image The truth So when she hit me first I'm pretty shocked I didn't burst I'm calling Josh, Jack and Juss who am I ringing first? Man I was so excited That I replied a minute later that's that bro I think that you just let her know excited Too excited, no clue on what I should do excited So I'm just typing, rambling like a fool, excited Look Look And we were talking for hours over some minor things Ignoring everyone else to her I'm replying quick This type of chick she got a spark like you were lighting spliffs You know you like her when you're thinking about your words She got me typing, deleting my messages then re-writing In the hope that there's a smile when she's replying The highlight of my day, them phone calls in the night, it's the little things The girl, she had a vibe and I liked it and She's into photography and she's got a passion for it And she respects that I'm rapping but she ain't catting for it See that's the perfect balance There's nothing better than a girl with talent Drive, ambition, all of them things above She's showing an abundance I ain't even met her yet She works around the corner but lives just outside of London I ain't fronting, I'm a sweet boy Intentions are in question so my compliments are decoys If that even makes sense? The first time I met her, I'm surrounded by my friends Random ends on some staircase So much for a first date I just had a show And I asked if she could meet me after Maybe we could chill, you never know where things could go No problem she down to roll Travelled in the cold So I went across the road, grey hoodie under a coat If I'm remembering correctly It's always kind of weird when the person that you were texting Is the person you are obsessed with I was on her from the jump I think she was wearing pumps or Vans when I first met her, no, it's either either one She was looking so attractive I barely saw skin 'cause she was covered like a mattress Man, I think that she's the one I was stuck for twenty seconds tryna to give the girl a hug And all my friends are drunk so fuck it, I'm about to kiss her Any complications, I'm blaming it on the liquor Changing my name on Twitter and blocking her on my Insta I saw her skin blush the moment that our lips touched She pulled my bottom lip until it stretched Kissed me on my cheek until she reached around my neck And had me moaning like a bitch Even though I'm wearing jeans, I had to re-arrange my dick so she don't see that I'm erect It's the first time we met, got me feeling like a creep And that strawberry flavour gave her tongue a kinda sweet little taste And we could speak about anything we were friends first I dropped her to the station I remember 'Cause we had a conversation for ages about our dreams And the things that we hadn't seen and all that we intended to do I bet she's hoping my intentions are true And as months went by we both got into it, and intimate And I'ma spare you the details 'cause both of our parents are probably listening But really we were into it Into us, into this Into everything about each other we were lovers and I love her 'Cause she knows me and that's probably why she told me you ain't ready for a girl You're still a little kid that's getting ready for the world and you don't need that kinda burden But I told her that I want it And I'm just being honest, yes I know that girls exist but I don't see them as a problem I meant every single word And I ain't gonna lie and say DM's have been absurd but out of every single girl This is the weirdest of positions It's usually the girl that's asking where I see her fitting or a place on her position But I'm telling her I need it And I don't think she sees it, so I'm being even sweeter when we're speaking and we're meeting I've got affectionate messages, you could read them You gotta tell a girl that she's beautiful 'til she sees it Believes it, understands it more than physically Mentally, and the way that I'm feeling I could talk 10 years about the moment that we shared The jokes that we had running The places that we've been The music we made together producing next to my bed Then making my minor changes in reference to what she said I think I start to getting tired, my schedule's a mess Replies are gettin' lazy and my lady knows it's crazy But she's there if I'm in need While I'm at shows getting tempted by girls that are on their knees You know I'm only a teen, it's like my eyes started drifting Not as easy as I pictured to give your all to a woman Ignoring all this attention that's been getting to my head The sex is so accessible, one message or text and girls will get in your bed She's tryna make it happen with photos and her events I mentioned it's her passion, photography is her thing And I don't know if it's the pressure Where paper meets the passion and the pleasure We all gotta work to survive So now she's popping up at shows Taking pictures on her own And at first it wasn't cool But fuck it we let it go Until I saw her in some rapper's tracksuit, I felt a way She told me it was work and she was in some studio Taking pictures and I just sighed Some halfway wannabe rappers that fed her lies They ain't looking for no picture I know it's your profession But read their intentions They ain't paying male photographers to shoot that same session And that felt so disrespectful, standing on our dreams And crushing 'em, I just told her it's nothing do what you need to do If I ain't feeding you Then my opinion's all I'm giving when I speak to you 'Cause I don't have the right Why should girls be punished for a male's dirty mind? When I think about it now, I'm ashamed to the core I mean how many men stop their women from Achieving what they can because in secret they've been feeling insecure And I can't handle my emotions, it's probably why I didn't see her Talent when I shoulda been supporting and promoting Like I didn't have a platform, a voice and a following With everyone I knew, I really coulda do a lot of things to help chase her dream But instead of me to grow into the person that she needs I acted like I couldn't see And I don't mean to say this like I don't trust the girl But how can I trust her if I don't trust myself? And even girls can get tempted you know how it goes What if she meets a bigger rapper when she's at a show? What if he sees her backstage? What if he selling lots? What if he's got a bigger car, got a better watch? That doesn't bother me, she really ain't material It's all the little things they do that put the fear in you What if he actually replies? What if he phones her too? What if he's doing all the things that I'm supposed to do? What if he's listening, laughing, relating? What if he even cares to ask her how her day's been? What if he's trying to give her everything she needs And expects from the one damn person that she's dating? I shoulda helped her follow her dream But instead I held her back and had her following me And boys got a brave face so they'll never know That it hurts just as much when you let them go