I'm going through changes, I'm going through changes Lately, I really Feel like I'm, rollin' for delph like Philly Feel like I'm losin' control of myself I sincerely, apologize if all that I sound like Is I'm complaining, but life keeps on complicating And, I'm debating on, leaving this world this evening Even my girls can see that I'm grieving I try and hide it but I can't Why do I act like I am all high and mighty When inside I'm dying, I am finally realizin' I need, help Can't do it myself, too weak Two weeks I've been having ups and down Going through peaks and valleys Dilly dallying, around with the idea Of ending this shit right here I'm hating my reflection I walk around the house trying to fight mirrors I can't stand what I look like, yeah I look fat, but what do I care I don't give a fuck, only thing that I fear is Hailie I'm afraid that if I close my eyes then I might see her, shit I'm going through changes, I'm going through changes I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom Napping at noon, yeah dad's in a bad mood He's always snapping at you Marshall what happened that you Can't stop with these pills, and you've falling off with your skills And your own fans are laughing at you It become a problem you're too pussy to tackle Get up, be a man, stand, a real man woulda had this shit handled Know you just had your heart, ripped out and crushed They say Proof just flipped out, homie just whipped out and bust Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that, He wouldn't fuckin' shoot at, nobody, he'd fight first But dwelling on it only makes the night worse Now I'm popping Vikes, Percs, and Methadone Pills Yeah Em tight verse, you killed it Fuckin' drug dealers hang around me like Yes-Men And they gon' do whatever I says, whenever I says it It's in their best interest to protect their investment And I just lost my fuckin' best friend, so fuck it I guess then I'm going through changes, I'm going through changes (Don't know what I'm going through, But I just keep on going through changes) My friends can't understand this new me That's understandable man, but think how bananas you'd be You'd be an animal too If you were trapped in this fame, and caged in it like a zoo And everybody's lookin' at you Whacha want me to do? I'm starting to live like a recluse, and the truth is Fame is starting to give me an excuse To be at a, all-time low I sit alone in my home theater, watching the same damn D-V-D of the First tour, the last tour, he was still alive And it hurts, so I fast forward Sleeping pills would make me feel alright And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night I just take a couple more, yeah you're motherfucking right I ain't slowing down for no one I am almost homeward bound Almost in a coma, yeah homie, come on dole 'em out Daddy don't you die on me Daddy better hold your ground Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice Yeah baby hold me down I'm going through changes, I'm going through changes (Don't know what I'm going through, But I just keep going through changes) Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes Plus somehow I'm pulling through Swear when I come back, I'm ma be bullet proof I'm a do it just for proof I think I should state a few Facts, cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth See it just hit me, that what if I would not have made it through I think about the things that I would have never got say to you I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do Hailey this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too I still love your mother, that'll never change Think about her every day, we just could never get it together hey Wish there was a better way for me to say it But I swear on everything, I'll do anything for her on any day There are just too many things, to explain When it rains, guess it pours, guess it does Wish there wasn't any pain But I can't pretend there ain't I ain't placing any blame, I ain't pointing fingers Heaven knows I've never been a saint I know that it feels like we just pissed away our history And just today, I looked at your picture, almost as if to say I miss you sub-consciously, wish it didn't end this way But I just had to get away, don't know why, I don't know what else to say I guess I'm I'm going through changes, I'm going through changes Don't know what I'm going through, but I just keep going through changes